Well, I'm sure my "followers" will be shocked that I acutally posted something on here. I've been terrible about this idea of mine to start a blog. I really intended to try and put some tidbits of my life on here for those who might be interested, but I don't get a whole lot of internet time, and usually it is spent checking e-mail or facebook as quickly as possible, before my children completely wreck my house for the fortieth time today... Wow, how's that for a run-on sentence! Anyway, I am completely busy, but today, we had very little school left for the week, (it's Friday), and I came over to Mom's to use their much faster internet. I needed to do Gabe's sister's taxes, and didn't feel like laboring over them on our ancient dial-up... Anyway, the kid's are all miraculously taking an afternoon nap, or at least resting, so I decided to catch up. I read all of Megan's blog for the last two months, and will check up on the Ladies and Room 133...

I guess I am in a state of transition, since we have switched churches. I don't know if it is a bad thing or not, but in a lot of ways, church and home school group have been my social life for the last, oh forever... So I am going to have to push my comfort zone a little, both for my sake and my kids'. I don't know why it is so hard for me to reach out to people outside of my own little comfortable space at home, and previously at church. I know that until recently it was because of my own petty, selfish insecurities that I have battled for years, and I guess now it is force of habit that I keep to myself. Over last year (2008) through the Beth Moore Bible studies especially, the Lord has done a major work in my life in that area. I was able to see the unforgiveness that I had been harboring most of my life, and give that up, and forgive the people that had caused past hurts in my life, and to own up to the problems that had been kind of self-inflicted as a result. I was able to see myself more clearly through the eyes of Jesus than through my own perceptions. Don't get me wrong, this is still an ongoing process, but God has definitley jump-started the process. Anyway, a huge burden was lifted last year and I am so grateful for that.
So now, as I begin a new chapter of my life, I just want to seek God, and find out what it is that He has planned for me, and I need to crawl out of this comfortable rut that I have called home for so long, and just get out more. Call someone when I think about them, write a letter or a note of encouragement, invite people over, help someone out when I get a chance, things like that...
Reading Megan's post has inspired me to try to update this more often. I love reading what she puts down, and hopefully what I put here is of interest to someone, if not just a good exercise for my own mind...
Anyway, ...until next time!!