A Muddle

I didn't know what to title today's mess of a post... but that's what I feel like right now... in a muddle, if that's even a word. I have such a strange mix of emotions right now, I'm happy, peaceful, excited, nervous, and slightly miffed, if that's possible.

Happy, because the for the most part, my life is going smoothly at the moment. Besides the upset of being in a temporary living situation, I feel happy about the way life is right now. Everyone close to me is doing well, I have been catching up with old friends lately, making new friends, spending time with people I enjoy, and having a good time trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus.

Peaceful, because I spent a lot of time reading the Word today, with the primary purpose of studying for tonight's Bible study tonight at church, but ended up finding all sorts of gems that are contributing to my happiness. One of which is John 17, which is a prayer that Jesus is praying for us. I was also revisiting "Believing God" by Beth Moore. I love that study!!

Excited, because I'm so looking forward to what God is showing me, and is going to show me in the coming days. Also I'm excited for Sarah, because she got a job at Perry Christian Academy, as a teacher's aide, and will be moving closer to home. (Now if only the guy I have picked out for her is available...) I am excited that our new house is getting closer to being done, and we are getting closer to being 'home'.

Nervous, also because of the new house, because it is really stretching my faith, because I feel that it is something that God has provided, and has shown Himself along the way, but doubt tends to creep in. We have to buy the house from my Aunt and Uncle when it is finished, and we haven't begun the loan process yet. Today, I dug my reminder out of my 'Believing God' book, the word that Billie Sue gave me, and the verse that Leanne gave me speaking to that very subject. I even wrote in that note, that I would go back and read it as a reminder of God's goodness. I had to get it out a while back as well, when I was stressing about selling the other house, and God took care of that as well. So I know I need to trust Him in all things - sometimes it is more difficult than others. That reminds me of a quote from the movie "Faith Like Potatoes" (which is very good, by the way, but sad) - "Little miracles require difficulty, great miracles require impossibility." It feels like this is going to be a great miracle!

Slightly miffed, because as I sit here and type, Gabe is at the office again... He had called to tell one of his employees that he needed to talk to him in the morning, and when he called, something obviously wasn't right, he said he'd be right there, hung up forcefully, and got his stuff and left... He usually tells me what is going on, and he didn't. I was hoping to get to talk to him about some things I've been thinking about lately - I'll probably blog about that when I get a chance to talk to him first...

Well, I should have been in bed a long time ago, but I was kind of wound up, so I decided to put my energy to a good use. I guess you can consider blogging a good use of time...right? Good night, or good morning, rather, since it is now in the a.m.!